what dreams may come …

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last night

wandering across

a dreamscape of ordinary

of cheerios strewn in carseats

on the most ordinary drive around town

on the most ordinary of running-errands, nothing-special days

i found a treasure

of skin warm

of smile bright

of son  ALIVE.

but as with all of life’s greatest pleasures, so was this treasure:

the more tightly i grasped, longing to hold him

the further and further he slipped away

until i was left

palms open



these words, scratched down in prayer for my soul-friend, who woke this morning from a blissful dream of a healthy boy – the very first dream of him since his home-going – to find her arms dreadfully empty once again.   

please pray for her today … and for all of those who, like her, must live brave in walking nightmares of children gone too soon.

reading here today … and praying through the sad … and thinking of you, soul-friend.  and of a world to come that is beyond even the best dreams – may it come quickly.


  1. Matt and Shelley

    praying for you right now, dear ones. i wish i had more comforting words to write.

  2. caryn

    love and prayers

  3. dibogdan

    Praying for that peace that passes all understanding.

  4. Ashley

    i love you all so…prayers and hugs…

  5. Alex's World

    I think about this family often. My heart aches for Sonya, as a mother I cannot imagine what she must be going through. Praise God that she trusts in the Lord, for some day soon she will touch his warm skin and see his bright smile again. Bane is alive and living well with Christ and in cherished memories of his loved ones.

  6. Danielle

    Still praying…

  7. Anonymous

    I wait for the LORD, my whole being waits,
    and in his word I put my hope (Psalms 130:5)….this scripture was read in church Sunday & reminded me of this dear family. Still praying for you.

  8. Emily Lavenue-Roberts & Chad Roberts

    i woke up to a rainy day today and the first thing i did was start to pray for sonya, drason and livi. rainy days can be hard…

  9. Alyssa

    Sending love and prayers your way.

  10. Beth Garrett

    In the long, lonely days that reality brings, I hope that Sonya, Drayson and Livi and all those who loved and cherished Bane can feel that they are lifted in prayer by so many.

  11. jennynobleanderson

    that rainbow wig. that bright boy. they shine light on so many and so much.