there’s an ol’ saying — one that your Paw Paw might have said — that argues that
it’s a statement against being lackadaisical or lukewarm.
it’s a call to exercise conviction, and its metaphor applies to many, many areas of life: work responsibilities, family commitment, etc.
the idea behind it is one that you’ll never have to explain to a woman who has held a tiny white stick that trumpets two pink lines.
any mama knows that a growing baby, even from poppyseed size,
is a momentous weight to carry. to give womb space to growing child
is to experience more change than just a swelling of belly —
for pregnancy is miracle wrapped in ordinary;
it is the spark of all creation made flesh in human skin.
and yet. before we go getting all romance-y … let’s say what is also true: it is work.
because the hope within us is greater than.
and it sustains us, through the sickness that extends well past morning, through levels of tired we never knew we could sink to, through double-chin photos and skinny jeans sent to consignment, we are buoyed by the baby within. we keep plodding one swollen ankle in front of the other, and we wait — because we hope.
since we’re on the topic of swollen ankles, this seems like a good place to segue into a journal entry that Sonya wrote. because while she spent her Livi pregnancy pointing and laughing at me (photos do confirm that I was the size of a house — or at least a small trailer), she got her just desserts (no pun intended) while carrying Bane. My girl was big.
but her love for Bane was big, too. and she wrote:
“i was SO pregnant with bane … not just regular ol’ pregnant, but SO VERY pregnant. by 9 weeks i was showing, so i had to start telling people at work because they were asking around. by my sixth month, people were asking me daily if i was about to deliver.
i just carried bane differently than livi. he felt heavier, lower down, spread out, just an all over bigger child. i felt him all over, too. in my hips, my knees, my back, even in my lungs as it became hard for me to breathe.
i am now so thankful for this. i am so glad that i didn’t get to easily go about my days and forget that my son was with me, cuddled there, inside me. i was very aware of his presence, and i am so glad, as now those 9 months are the most precious i ever lived.”
how does she do it? i often wonder.
how does she think back to those days, when she felt the kick of child
who would not be long for this world, when she housed him and nourished him with her own body, when she protected him by keeping him tucked inside?
how does she think back to those days, and wake up to these evil days we live in now and not turn bitter?
and — in prayer — comes the answer:
not with Bane — not anymore — but with something eternal, something that cannot be stolen by death or withered by time.
she is pregnant with hope.
hope for Heaven, where she will see her sweet Bane, and — more than that — where she will experience her precious Savior.
and though the road is long (longer, even, than 9 months) and the labor is hard (harder, even, than giving birth), those who know that Heaven is home do not labor in vain.
we feel the kick of a Spirit within us that tells us to endure. to keep plodding our bruised hearts along and to wait — because we have hope.
we are called, you and I, to be pregnant with hope.
and to know that our hope is greater than.
and though it won’t swell our bellies, it might just change our lives, this hope, if we let it …
As promised in Bane’s birthday post, we will be including a giveaway at the end of each post in our “7 Days of Heaven” series.
Today’s gift? A beautiful necklace, from the Vintage Pearl …
the very same one (only with your own 2 charms, of course)
that was gifted to Sonya, after Bane was born.
Win it for yourself or to use as a Christmas gift for someone who you love.
To enter today’s giveaway, you may do any (or all) of the things listed below. Simply leave a comment letting us know that you have completed one (or more, if you so choose) of the options listed below. For each option in the list below that you complete, you should leave a separate comment, which will allow you multiple chances to win — up to seven entries total. Contest closes Wednesday, December 8, 2010, at midnight, CST. Winner will be selected randomly and announced on Thursday, December 9.
- 1. Leave a comment sharing with us: what do you really HOPE for (beyond your Christmas wish for Santa)? It might be something for yourself, for a loved one, for the world — we’d love to hear what’s in your heart.
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